10 years is a long time

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We all agree that this pandemic is not a productivity competition. People are struggling, the health care providers, government, people are sick, withstanding their job, *sigh* it’s such a difficult time for everyone. So I might as well write again.

So, how’s life been treating me? I’ve been well, I’ve been through some preference shift on my interest, hobby and stuff -well yes of course compared to the-2010-me when I started this blog haha (I’m now 30!! omg how craazy is that!!).

I enjoy EDMs now. Blame this on BodyJam class lol. I still do enjoy good lyrical songs (John Mayer oh hello!) but EDM (Electronic Dance Music) for me is pure entertainment. It is 99,99% loud and idk I feel like it reflected my fondness of the fitness world since I’m used to these musics banging on the gym. So, it’s not that I like to go to the club, definitely not. It’s fun because I get to get my serious cardio burning while following interesting dance choreography at the gym.

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I finally happy with my skincare routine. No more flaky/oily skin like I used to have during my college years! I even actually made a new blog about beauty (thewindchill -if you got to read it lol). After a few years of writing that blog, I decided to merge it into this one. At first I thought that blog was just my alter-ego speaking, it eventually morphed into the one I am today. I see it as a long term hobby that I can do anywhere or anytime. If you want to check those writings you can click on “Beauty” on the menu above.

 

I enjoy doing my makeup. In addition to skincare, apparently applying makeup is very therapeutic and relaxing! I mean I can put on my makeup and wear it through the day although I’m not going anywhere (not even posting a picture). I watched so many videos on YouTube about makeup (YouTube was still a comfortable little place back in 2013 where all the ‘non-popular-kids’ like me hung out lol). The more I let myself venture into the beauty realm, the more I understand that for me makeup and skincare is a part of my “self care” routine. It’s not meant to satisfy anyone but myself.  I even once went through FOMO phase (Fear Of Missing Out) where I literally wanted to buy all of the new launches, I wanted to try EVERYTHING. Fortunately enough at that time local brands were not as many and as interesting as the ones today lol, so my choices were limited and I didn’t need to buy too many things. Now that phase is over, I actually know what makeup products I prefer based on makeup style I enjoy. Also now I know which ingredient in skincare that my skin actually like and dislike.

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  • Have you noticed I re-branded this blog??! Last Imperfection has grew into The Brown Space. Brown because I want this blog to be a cozy warm little Space in the middle of fast content era. I think I should regularly write in here as little as once per month(?) I hope that doesn’t sound too ambitious seeing the my hiatus in the past few years haha. But you know I recently merge my beauty blog, so don’t get confused if you suddenly see a lipstick on your feed.

Although I’m not complaining being at home because of the pandemic, I guess I’m ‘being productive at home’ as a way to sooth my self from the mass panic that the television news has made us feel. Like dr. Mike said: be alert, not panic.

Pregnancy and Miscarriage


It started in the end of January 2018. I experienced the feeling of unexplained fatigue for some times. I guess the most significant measure was that I wasn’t able to carry that one bulky laptop that I used to put in my backpack every single day when I was in collage. Haha it was crazy, it felt so weird that I cannot carry that laptop on my back. I thought was there anything wrong with my health? Well, not until early February that my husband and I witnessed the two red strips. We were happy and our family were full of joy hearing the good news :) Our first visit to the doctor went very well. We want to make sure that there were no false alarm from the two pregnancy test home strips that we used. From the ultrasound, our doctor confirmed that the site of the pregnancy is within the cavity of the uterus, so everything was fine with our 5-weeks-old future child. InsyaAllah next visit will be next month.

Throughout the pregnancy I experienced everything what a mother-to-be might going through. The morning sickness (which for me it’s an all-day nauseated feeling haha), the headache (that feels like a kick in the head), all-day tiredness and of course once or twice slight cramps on my belly. Oh everything was worth the experience :) I thought it was normal until the cramps got really severe and the headache occurred more frequently…

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Social Media Detox for a Year

Being a millennial, I have been on the internet since the year 2002 (that’s like about 15 years already?). Anybody at that time would carelessly over-shared what we have in our lives to the internet (because who the h#ll understands about consequences anyway? haha). I’m talking about the time when the nitizen uses Friendster, AOL, mIRC, Geocities, Multiply, and I really mean even-before-myspace kind of era. Like, most of people might didn’t understand what an e-mail was.

With that background in mind, I thought I was ‘smart’ enough to use the so-called social media in today’s internet. However, ever since I graduated from collage apparently I “live on the internet” more often than I live my life. Bluntly speaking, that was very intoxicating. Anyways, as you ladies and gentlemen knew from my previous post, I went for a social media detox for a year in 2016. So, here are several things that I learn from this experiment.

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New Job, New Gym, New Life


April has been amazing so far. I’m not talking about my birthday here haha. But it really has been a blast.

The highlight of this month is definitely my new job. Looking back from a few years earlier, I went from being a science student, a photographer, graphic designer, English instructor, proofreader, and then here I am now in the investigation industry. It’s challenging -not gonna lie. But it’s do-able. I just wish that Jakarta’s traffic isn’t as jammed like it is now. No wonder people can only spend so little time with family: the traffic jam is too overwhelming… every single day. Nevertheless, I’m very grateful for these new people I’m working with now. I’m starting to live a new life. And it’s one of the best birthday gift from Allah swt.

New life means new gym. I know, I know most of you might think did I lost my fvcking mind?? Every people in this planet earth doesn’t agree with me starting to hit the gym as soon as I get a job. Especially with my post-operation knee(s) February last year. I knew my knees aren’t 100% recovered yet because I was not able to train my quads. I felt that cycling and swimming didn’t effect that much in strengthening my quadricepts. I just can’t put my heart to it. For me personally, cycling is boring and I can never stand the cold water when I swim. Let’s not talk about yoga nor pilates because I hated it hahaha. What I really really enjoy is weight training. I enjoy the process, I can feel the results on my muscles and stamina, there are so many movement variations, I feel energized, it’s very much therapeutic for my mind. But I do understand that I can’t carelessly training by my self since I’m prone to injury. That’s why I’m training with a personal trainer, and I also no longer practice high intensity workouts. The result? Well, I can now pray with normal movement :) See? I’m not crazy. I have my own calculation.

Another highlight this month? I attended a wedding of my best friend last week. I met so many friends from collage and from high school at that one event. One thing that I haven’t mention here in my blog is that I had been on ‘social media detox’ for one year since last April. No Facebook, Twitter, Path, Whatsapp or even text messages. I was strictly only on Instagram and Youtube. So it was such an interesting experience meeting 50-ish acquaintances and close friends all at the same time. It’s like living alone at a deserted island then suddenly go to a big party haha. Later in the afternoon, I met someone from the internet, in person, for the first time! Yes I’m talking about you Apri! :D Haha we really should arrange better meetings next time.

30 Days Writing Challenge | Day 8

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Day 8: Share something you struggle with

Tadinya saya mau bikin post terpisah untuk ini yang membahas semua-muanya dengan komplit (spesial -seperti nasi goreng). Tapi ternyata tema 30 Days Writing Challenge kali ini sangat cocok dengan sesuatu yang baru saja saya alami. So, why not do them both in one post?

I’m currently struggling with post arthroscopic knee surgery. Bahasa belanda-nya: pascaoperasi arthroscopy lutut.
Disini saya ngga akan dengan detail membahas teknis operasi dan kondisi saya -I’ll tell you why later on. So this is what I can share right now. Not much. But it is what it is.

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