I sound like a dinosaur right now. I mean it, seriously. And the reason is.. I’ve caught a cold. It’s the 3rd time in the past 12-ish months -which is kinda impressive. I used to have cold like every two months when I was in uni. This indicates that the workout has doing a good job for my body lol *minta ditoyor*.
Anyway, so yeah, I got cold, these itchy throat, heavy head, runny nose, and of course my weird voice -which my high-school buddies defined it as my ‘husky-manly-sexy-voice’. It’s time for me to chill and write down a few thoughts here and there. I’ll try to keep this post brief and short. But, idk. So here it goes.
Early September, I got on an internship in a holding company. I was assigned into the Human Resource Department as an in-house graphic designer and social media management staff. I was really enjoying myself, I liked it there, all in all I learnt that HR takes a huge part in keeping the company in its feet. And for the first time in two years, I got really productive-slash-busy (a bit more or less like I was in uni). A whole day at work, I often got home around 9 pm, took every friday off to go to collage, my weekends are full-booked by family -whether it’s a ‘3 weddings in a day’ or mom saying “let’s movie marathon” kinda day. I practically didn’t have the time to think about my thesis while my lecturer kept reminding me about how much time I got left. I barely have enough time for myself to soothe things out.
Sometimes I thought that having my own dorm/apartment/flat/kosan would make my life much more easier. You know, like back in Bandung, I would probably enjoy my days like I used to. I could go home whenever (and however) I want, no need to report whenever I’d be late for dinner, I don’t need to adjust my schedule for the things I don’t want to do, no one to order me around, no uninvited sleepovers, etc. Everything sounds so perfect…….. but when I thought about it more carefully, that ‘perfect life’ is a lot less meaningful. No one to take care of me when I’m sick, no families around, no hugs, and an empty room to go home to. I should be grateful that I have my family with me.
When you used to live alone for 5 years, living with family is a bit of a challenge. Especially with the same amount of activity you need to do = working/organization while studying (or studying while working/organization). So, it’s like taking my life to another level (a.k.a my situation was crazy). I know there are a lot of people in this world that can juggle very well between working and studying in the same period of time. I have no idea how they do it. I HAVE NO IDEA. I repeat: It’s crazy and I have no idea how they do it.
So after 1 month and a week -which was last friday, I quit my internship.
It was a tough decision to make. But it’s life, sometimes we have to let some things go.
Now I’ve learn that for some people, life isn’t all about passion. It’s about priority, it’s about what’s important. And that priority changes over time. And that’s ok.
Ps. And lately, I grow a dislike towards the term ‘passion’. People keeps talking about passion as if it can only be a one single activity that lasts forever. Little they forgot that ‘human being’ develops as time goes by. There’s no such thing as a ‘final me’ or ‘final you’.
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